After a long night of intermittent labor and an early morning of excruciating work…
One little girl changed our world forever.
The cord was wrapped around her neck and tied into a knot. The doctor worked quickly and expertly cut the cord, loosening its hold on our baby’s airway. She took gasping breaths, while the rest of the delivery room held theirs. Her pinking up and loud wails brought cheers and tears all around.
Our doctor, glanced at Jeff to say, “You have one lucky girl here.”
Jeff replied, “Blessed, Dr Patel. She is blessed.”
Once Kinley started to wail she didn’t stop. She was in the baby warmer being checked over by a pediatrician while Jeff held my hand and we offered prayers of more gratitude than I had ever felt. The doctor asked Jeff to come and comfort our baby girl, until I was able to take her.
Jeff walked near to the baby warmer and leaned in close, Kinley’s wails filled the room. Jeff said, “Kinley, honey. It’s Daddy.”
Her cries immediately stopped, and her head turned towards his voice.
My big strong hubby broke into tears, looked at me and said, “She knows me!” And, my friends, that was that. She had his heart. Forever and for always.
I could not stop looking at her. Could. Not. Stop.
I watched her chest rise and fall. Rise and fall. Rise and fall.
I put my ear to her chest to hear the thumping of her heart.
I’ve been given many things from my Lord. Many things.
But those early days of motherhood, with the memory of sickness and fever in the recent past, were some of my most grateful days ever.
Why did He do this for me?
She turned eleven last week. She has a passion for God that is astounding to me. She loves people. She loves her family. She is a terrific artist.
Our days are full of school and cooking together and hearing her dreams and plans. We’ve painted her room pink and blue and stenciled and picked out curtains. We’ve taped her ballet classes and enjoyed sleepovers and movie nights. We have lively discussions about fashion and what she can (or can’t) wear. We’ve heard her confess Christ as Lord and seen her be baptized. We’ve pierced her ears and cut her hair.
But I always know in my mother’s heart. She is His. His.
He decided to let me know her on this earth. I may never understand all the reasons why.
I drink in the fear of those early months. The desperate prayers. The understanding that at any point it could have gone the other way. The knowledge that for many it does.
I swallow all of that and let it refine and remind me of Him.
My Kinley does that. Testifies to Him. Without saying a word.
I love you my girl. God sent you here for a purpose. Never stray from His side. He loves you more than I do. And, sweet girl, that is saying a lot.
Thank you Jesus.